In choir, we’re singing this song called “Sing Me to
Heaven.” The lyrics are “Touch in me grief and comfort, love and passion, pain
and pleasure.” Aside from being beautiful in lyric and in sound, the meaning
behind this song really made me think.
There are many things in life that go hand-in-hand; you can’t
have one without the other. If it never rains, how can you truly appreciate a
sunny day? If you never feel sadness, how can you know what real happiness
feels like? Going back to the song lyrics, you need grief in order to really
feel comfort, pain in order to really feel pleasure. You can’t have one without
the other.
I’ve had a fairly easy life compared to some people I know
and compared to the things I hear about in the media. I’ve lost some loved ones
along the way and suffered a few wounds to my heart, but all that hurt just
makes me appreciate the good times so much more.
I truly do have the most amazing friends in the world. If I
had never lived at the dorms at UNO, I never would have worked at Midtown,
which is where I met my squaaaaad. My best friend never would have found a guy
that makes her happier than I’ve ever seen her. I never would have left Midtown
to work at the Alamo, where I’ve met so many more amazing people. This chain of
events never fails to blow my mind.
I’ve come a long way in these past 10 months, and I never
thought I would be where I am today. I am not the same person in many ways
(which scares the hell out of me), but I feel like I’m changing for the better
in many ways as well. It’s just nice to know that even when I’m at my lowest
point, I can look back and think of the last time I was at my lowest point and
remind myself that it really does get better. It might take a while, but it
does.
PS- If anyone reading this is alive when I die, I want a
choir to sing that song at my funeral.
